I really ADULATE HIM

There’s this guy that I adulate

He was my chatmate back in high school

When I saw his pictures on his profile, I didn’t feel anything.

Maybe because I haven’t seen him personally.

My friend told me that he is cute.

But it didn’t excite me.

The time passed, I didn’t entertain him on Yahoo.

The classes started

New friends, New personalities

I saw a guy that made me think

He is so familiar

I realized that he is the guy that I ignored everytime he gives me personal messages

My friend was right.

He is very cute and attractive

Since that day, I started noticing him.

on the Hallway,

Student Lounge,

Gymnasium,

Restaurant,

& at the canteen.

I didn’t realized that noticing him made me feel happy

whenever I see him from afar or maybe just a few distance from me, I always notice myself smiling.

And then I realized that I already Adulate him.

and I think,

I’m starting to fall for HIM

TALKING TO HIM

I never realized that I will be able to talk to him last night

He’s my crush. yes.

but I’m starting to let go this kind of feeling for him.

coz I know where it goes..

to a DEEP LOVE..

that will make me hurt again..

hahaii..

How can I forget him if everyday I’m searching for him?

just looking at him makes me happy..

He makes my day complete..

though we’re not friends

(the sad part)

HELP!!!

anyways, we had a short and silent conversation last night..

silent because we both don’t have words to utter..

short because I’m longing to make it happen again..

I never thought that I could be able to call him..

I never thought that I can have that strength calling him..

But It happened.

a while ago, I saw something on his profile..

It hurts me. yes.

But I have to get rid of the hurt that I felt..

because It could ruin everything If I listen to the anger and pain I felt.

I just need to be QUIET.

I GUESS.